My first time (it didn’t work)

I had real penetrative sex for the first time at 38. I enjoyed it, but it didn't fundamentally change my life. I liked apple pie before and I still like apple pie after. The funny thing is it wasn't the first time I had the opportunity. The first two times my body said no. And … Continue reading My first time (it didn’t work) →

The Discipline of Clean Exits: How to Leave Without Bitterness

I recently ended a relationship. Not because of betrayal or drama, but because I saw the truth clearly: personality incompatibility that would only compound over time. The easy path would have been to focus on what was wrong, what didn't work, why she wasn't right. But I've learned something through years of inner work: if … Continue reading The Discipline of Clean Exits: How to Leave Without Bitterness →

The 38-Year Epiphany: You Are Already Worthy

After breaking up with my first girlfriend at age 38, the dust settled and a truth emerged that I had missed for decades: I was always worthy of love. My relationship didn't define my value; it just happened to be the mirror I was looking in. I had spent so much time thinking a relationship/sex … Continue reading The 38-Year Epiphany: You Are Already Worthy →

Postponing is awesome (in a way)

Dear Reader, Chances are that in this day and age you have already heard how virtuous is being decisive, taking charge, especially if you’re a male. Let’s take a deep dive into this topic cause I disagree. Basically, anytime you take a decision here and now there are very high chances that the decision is … Continue reading Postponing is awesome (in a way) →

Morning routine

Dear Reader, There is a magic to waking up. These days you can say there is even a science to it. Our brains go through sleep delta brainwaves to theta semi sleep and then we go to alpha morning chill and then once we start our daily activities like job we’re in beta. The same … Continue reading Morning routine →

Should’ve, could’ve, didn’t

I'm relistening to the 'You can heal your life' by Louise Hay. First exercise there is to create the list of all the 'Shoulds/Shouldn'ts' (for example. "I should be liked by everyone") and then figure out why those statements have arisen. After looking at my list I figured there are basically three sources of those … Continue reading Should’ve, could’ve, didn’t →

Mirror, mirror on the elevator wall

Dear Reader, I highly recommend doing mirror work everyday whenever and wherever possible. What is a mirror work? You basically look into the mirror and start saying kind and loving things to yourself like: “I love you I really, really love you” ”<Your name> you are so amazing” ”This is going to be a wonderful … Continue reading Mirror, mirror on the elevator wall →

Welcome to the next edition of: “So you want to be a people pleaser?”

Dear Reader, If you consider yourself a people pleaser, I've got fantastic news for you. You really don't care neither about pleasing other people nor how they feel... It's just a learnt subconscious pattern. Let's step back. Self-regulation means that we're all striving and looking for finding balance in our emotional lifes. We're always doing … Continue reading Welcome to the next edition of: “So you want to be a people pleaser?” →

The surrender formula

Dear Reader, I don't know how about you but I used to not enjoy the concept of surrender and letting things go. I was always convinced that there was a virtue in hustling, working hard and 'makin' it'. Who would care about sleep if it takes time out of your productive time?The people who love … Continue reading The surrender formula →

How I Guard My Headspace

People often ask how I actually stay in this mindset of self-worth and surrender. The truth isn’t found in a single epiphany; it’s found in how I aggressively protect my peace before the world gets a chance to mess with it. I have a morning routine. On paper, it looks like a lot. In reality, … Continue reading How I Guard My Headspace →